As a typical woman, I compare myself to other woman. I jealously wish I was someone else, and pretend I am those whom I'm not. Sometimes, I look upon the male nature and think nothing else but hatred, because you men put us woman down. I'm not trying to be a feminist, but most woman would agree that we are insecure at times and you men care about sex more than pure absolute love. This can be deeply painful for us. However, I don't blame this male behaviour because our thoughts are the reasons of our actions. Men have been hurt by our female ways too. They secretly mumble under their breath about us, they complain to their friends about us, and they might even talk to other woman about us... And we don't care. I never cared about what men thought about me, unless they commented on my appearance. I would never change who I am for some one else. I may have even said I would or act as if I changed, but inside I can never really change, unless I need to for ME. It may be selfish to think that way, but I am who I am, and if a man cannot accept it, than leave me as I am, and go find someone else who can accept you..because that is hard to find; a woman who can accept you from the outside all the way deep within. Even when you are scared to show your sensitive side and show your true self, but instead replaced it with cockiness and smart ass remarks.

All I ever wanted, ignoring every disney fairytale or movie-like male figures, was a man who can appreciate my company, love every bit of me and accept my flaws. Not to mention, enjoy the good and the bad times and even stand by me while I stand by him. To be powerful together, and step upon those who have hurt us and move on together. To share each other secrets, not to care about our pasts, and move with each other to the future. To trust, to laugh, to share meaningful intimacy, and to be free. Yes, being free exists in a committed relationship. Although, some of you men do not understand that we do want you to be free and happy, but we just want to be in your thoughts. We do not want to chain you down. We simply want you to think about us, like we think about you..even when we're talking to the opposite sex.

I must admit though, as a woman I have led men on, lied to them and deceived and belittle them. I did most of the things that men hate about us.. On the contrary, I did those things because I felt like I was put on a pedestal and was expected to be an amazing girlfriend. I was and I am an amazing girlfriend. I am a lover of love, and enjoy everything that love provides for me,you, & everyone. I am a hopeless romantic and believe that love is what makes life beautiful. But once I am taken for granted and begin to feel alone in a two way street relationship. I start to rebel, forgetting about the morals I usually follow and forgetting the meaning of love. I do not act this way just because I randomly woke up one morning and want too, but because I feel as if my freedom was taken away, the freedom of me being the loving person I am. I feel as if I show affection first, I am the weakest and most needy, when I should not feel that way at all. So, I'm truly sorry for those who feel as if I led on, lied or deceived you but you made me feel as if love did not exist anymore when it really does.